FINALLY! i'm home!
SIX days later...
Being at the hospital is the worst. It feels like prison. Being stuck in a room. Being able to see the outside and not go out. The Food doesnt sound good.
Chemo is getting WORSE. I thought it would be easier?
Im getting FAT. I thought i would just lose muscle?
And the affect it has on your mental state. You get so stuck inside your head, watching time go by.
This time in the hospital, I gave myself a mani/pedi, finished a 500 piece puzzle, studied my NASM textbook, finished all of Psych on netflix, so how did this feel WORSE even if i was busier?
The anxiety kind of over takes you, i'm on steroids that don't let you sleep at night and it's tossing and turning, staring into the night. and its LONELY. I'm SOO extremely happy to be home! My mom is within arms reach and i'm NEVER alone. Olive is by my side always and i LOVE her so much.
I'M HALFWAY DONE WITH CHEMO!!
THANK GOD!! I'm so over cancer, guys. Physically feeling like something is sucking the life out of me.
